Adam Turtle, Freelance Web Design in Belfast, Northern Ireland
Since1986
Bad Week
- 12th July, 2007
- filed under: San Francisco
- 3 comments
I’m going through quite a bad week at the moment. Nothing really major has happened to make it a bad week, I’m just feeling really homesick. I’ve been here just over a month now, and so far it’s been quite fun – but not amazing. I’ve found it really difficult to make friends and I’m feeling lonely alot of the time. What’s worse is that another apartment fell through mostly because of my own hesitation, and I’m just getting fed up being stuck at this hostel. I’m also concerned that moving into my own place isn’t going to make things any better.
The job is ok. I reckoned before I left that if the job wasn’t the greatest, it would be ok because the lifestyle over here would more than make up for it. I’m beginning to regret that now because a lot of my time is taken up by the job, but I don’t know that I could stick at it for the whole year. I’m not really learning much in terms of design or programming and the pay is really bugging me (the lack of it).
I’m strongly considering looking for a job elsewhere, even outside of California or even back home again. My boss reckons I’m not meeting people because I’m not getting out enough to meet people. I can’t help it that I don’t want to go out and party at bars and clubs just to meet people. I’ve tried the church here but while it’s a nice church, it’s events during the week aren’t aimed at my age group and I feel completely dislocated from any church right now.
Perhaps I’m just feeling sorry for myself and it’s inevitable that I feel a little homesick but I’m really wishing that this job had just been for the summer. One whole year in this city makes me feel very depressed. It doesn’t help that the few people I have met over here are going back home in August. I don’t want to waste the opportunity I’ve been given, and I went through a lot of crap to get me here (not to mention expense!). I need advice, what should I do?
Adam, sorry to hear you’re finding things tough, all I can suggest is don’t concentrate on the fact its for a whole year – just take it a day at a time, God will show you what’s best. Just pray for God’s guidance, and I’ll remember to pray for you too. At the end of the day don’t worry about the expense and hassle it took to get you there, if you’re feeling it isn’t worthwhile and you can’t get settled then thats far more important than just stayin cos it took a lot effort gettin there. Same time don’t make any rash decisions due to homesickness and possibly miss some great opportunities out there.
I hope you get all sorted, at the end of the day, if its where God wants you to be, he’ll keep you there, if not, then He’ll show you a way out.
I’m away at CSSM at the min but if you need a chat, just send me a text and I’ll ring you back. Pete
Hey mate don’t worry about wasting time, its all experience at the end of the day and that counts for a lot. At least thats what I keep telling myself when I think about how ive “wasted” the last two years of Uni and have another four ahead.
Besides if you hadn’t have gone you would be sitting at home wishing you had.
Besides God is sovereign, so whatever happens, it happens for a reason.
In other news your dad has been in Jessops getting photos developed. He threatened to kill me if I lost his memory card lol.
With my current finances the way they im not going anywhere this summer. Oh well.
Michael Dornan came to a fancy dress party as you which was amusing.
Cheerio an keep yer chin up!
Steve
Oh flip that reminds me I havn’t left back the key for the house in Belfast yet.
Dont worry about it dude, it might seem crap at the moment, but it could just be a rough week and the homesickness is maybe just starting to hit.. your church sounds good, but is there any other church you could maybe find that has more young people in it? feel free to drop any of us guys an email, or even better, get skype and we can have a proper chat!!
Blessings
Connor